Well I thought a lot about whether I should share about my sick day..or rather I should say my self-inflicted suffering. I decided to let you see that I am human and make mistakes along this journey too.
I spent the day on Sunday with my Sweetie as he tattooed a design, that I had created, onto my lower back. I had 2 fruit smoothies on hand as he Slaved (inking) over my body. I had nuts and seeds and dried fruit....but getting a tattoo takes a lot out of you...and it makes you very HUNGRY! So we stopped half way and we ran up to the store. He was happily heading towards the fresh fruits and veggies to get me a much needed snack, when I grabbed his arm and pulled him towards the deli section.......Nooooooooooooo.... At first he was surprised, but he came along......I picked out a veggie samosa. He looked at me with his little raised eye brow..but he didn't argue..........Get the woman what she wants! I have to say that I was very hungry and not using any judgment at all. I was thinking " Hey it is vegetarian...I have been so good..surely I can have just a little cooked food"................................Boy was I WRONG!! I got home..scarfed it down, and with in about 30 min I was feeling like a Brillo pad had been hidden in the spicy goodness. Yes my insides were getting beaten up...no enzymes for the cooked food...ouch! I have suffered all last night..through the night until this morning. I ate some enzymes last night which is the only way they got through me. But it was a painful process. Cramping, nausea, shaking. My body was not ready for that, and I am so sorry body for putting us through that. I learned a valuable lesson....After being on an all raw diet for an extended period of time your body can not assimilate the food. It just suffers...and you along with it. If I ever choose to eat cooked food again, it will have to be alot slower, and with more gentle foods. however...I feel so good eating a live food diet that going back to cooked foods would be depressing. We shall see what the future holds....for now eating Raw is what is right for me..and i will honor myself and my body by nourishing it and loving it and treating it gently.
I am a beautiful soul filled with light..looking to touch others with sunshine..and when I am down I trust that my friends will share their light with me. Such is the web of life, so I believe..I also believe in treating others, as I would like to be treated..I believe in Karma. I believe in forgiveness..even when it is hard to do...I believe in beauty within people..I see the best in others..and try to work on making myself the best "Me" I can be right at this moment...I believe in appreciating the moment..and letting those around me know they are special to me. Tomorrow may never come...live for the moment...just "Be". I try not to worry ...it does not change anything positively..I try to be Positive and happy..I respect and love those around me. I believe that energy should flow in a healthy way. Learning to give and to recieve is a beautiful thing..The most important thing is to care about the things that truely matter....appreciate the moments that make it all worth while..watch the sunset...and sunrise...watch the moon grow big in the sky...
Tommorow may never come..soak up today!